Yeah I know I have been writing a lot lately. Making up for lost time I guess? LOL Actually with my head clearing, the dust settling and just trying to heal I'm getting back to me. A hurt and slightly empty me but me none the less.

I was thinking on something my nephew said to me. While the context he said it in has changed unfortunately, the idea behind it is truly sound. He told me that everything you want in life and strive for and hope for is one step out of your comfort zone.
I was pondering that last night as I sat outside watching the woods grow dark with the coming of night.
As a side note...the way the light changes as dusk approaches the woodlands where all takes on a pink or peachish glow. THERE is where you see and realize the majesty and beauty of Gaia and all she has to offer. Don't get lost in the mundane, always look to the beauty and magesty of nature and you will keep your grounding.

We all are striving to learn , to reach our potential and to explore our beliefs and chase after the happy ever after. All that we want and all that we hope for makes us take that step and trust it is just a little off our comfort zone. Sometimes we hesitate or sometimes we step ahead and then jump back a number of times but sooner or later we fall to the inevitable and hopefully take that plunge or wallow in spiritual and emotional stagnation. This is a ongoing process we repeat throughout our lives.

We strive to learn , to grow together, to seek new avenues and process that, it's scary, nothinh ever fits together perfectly and that is a challenge for us.to make it work...Yes, it may be out of what we would normally accept at times but as we run it over in our head and heart we come to question, That is where the true gift of growth comes in. You see when we question we challenge our beliefs we explore possibilities in our hearts and minds. we question our friends, we question other people we create a dialogue. through dialogue and conversation what is born is a idea.
out of that idea grows inspiration and out of that grows life. All this because we strayed from the predictable and followed our hearts that one step out of our comfort zone.
Open minds lead to open hearts lead to healing leads to growth lead right back to you.

So enjoy your day,

Love and Light

Jas

 

It was pointed out to me recently and I have come to realize this is true that I am brain drained. what i mean is that i have gotten so wrapped into the day to day, the mundane and trivial that I lost sight of the art of conversation. the interruptions of the day ..the background of the world just overran the cerebral mind.
I have been over the past day or so recharging the mental, spiritual, emotional batteries, nature cleanses me, heals me and calms my mind ...I have not taken the time or the energy to recharge myself in a LONG time and it manifested itself in ways that were not pretty to say the least.

But a dose of reality made me realize i need to get balanced again. I'm doing that again. I wish it hadn't come to critical mass before reality sunk in but that is neither here nor there. What matters is the present and that is what i have to deal with.

clearing ones head, absorbing all the Gaia has to offer makes the thoughts clearer, the reason process and the spirituality of the soul get back in tune.

I should have realized it when i was feeling 'blocked" on doing my art that something was amiss.

But since that moment ..as i open my heart and soul to the world, LISTEN to the sounds of Gaia and SEE her beauty all around me i get a sense of peace. To smell the freshness of the open air after the storms to feel the wetness of the dew on your feet. If you can find a spot ..away from the sounds of civilization and listen and see the birds, squirrels, rabbits or whatever is living nearby you and actually WATCH how they interact and talk ...Now there my friends is peace. Once you find that then your brain starts working right. well at least mine does. it is nice being able to THINK real thoughts and not just the mundane . It is nice to want to explore and share ideas thoughts dreams and all again.
My best friend said today that it is nice to hear me expressing my true thoughts and impressions again as i rarely did before when she needed it. You have NO IDEA how happy I am to be able to again express them. It is uplifting to me to be on my way to whole again. It is nice to find my thought process ...to think, to dream to envision to create...I didn't realize how much i missed my drawing till she asked me to work on a piece, (that point was my first step in realizing I was mentally blocked ..later events proved it) and not just dwell in the everyday. I also didn't realize how much i missed the intellectual banter..it is good for the heart and soul as it nourishes both the feeds the mental and spiritual nature of our being.

anyway, Ciao, have a good night

In love and light,
Jas

There is a lot going on in me and with me. Life is not always sunshine and roses sometimes it just hurts and sometimes it is what it is.

Little things pop up that keep me going...Part of todays horoscope was one...

When you gaze into your future with an optimistic outlook, you’ll focus primarily on the positive possibilities. Many people find comfort in imagining the negative circumstances that may or may not come to pass because they believe they are simply preparing themselves to face the worst. It is our thoughts that shape our lives, however. Visualizing the future of your dreams is the first step you take in your quest to manifest that future into being. When you think optimistically about your prospects, you’ll be more apt to recognize the positive aspects of all the probable outcomes you are facing. Your good thoughts will become the building blocks of your perfect life. You’ll clearly see the route you need to follow to attain success today when you look for it with an optimistic heart.

Optimism might be nice...right now i have existance in the forefront. But i keep rereading this part of the horoscope for a reason.

The last song i got has been stuck in my head on and off for the past few days as well.

Paul Brandt's The Risk

The song gets to me....well it was me ..lol There are times and people that you do risk it all for... there are a few other songs that have been running thu my mind and have been popping up but that works.

I’d rather stand on the edge of a cliff
And hang my toes over a bit,
And then jump when they dare me,
Even if it scares me and I get hurt.
I’d rather build my wings on the way down,
Do my best not to fall to the ground
and than laugh at my mistakes
‘cause there only lessons I’ll learn

Chorus:
I’d rather burn with desire deep in my soul,
And love like a fire that’s out of control, and laugh and dance and fall
and chance and kiss
I’d rather live my whole life
with a sense of abandon,
Squeeze every drop out,
no matter what happens.
And not wonder what I've missed
I’d rather risk.

Well I guess I could just play it safe
and forget about love, hope and faith,
with my eye on the shore line,
keeping my boat tied and staying home,

ohhh but I’ll never discover new land
by keeping my feet on the sand
No I’d rather set sail
and get carried away by the storm.

Anyway, it's a beautiful morning, i'm going to go fix my coffee and sit out in the backyard and watch the birds and animals having there breakfast before i go to work.

I have quite the assortment this year ranging from the 3 ravens to blue jays to cardinals to doves. Add to that the rabbitts and squirrels and it is quite the morning show as they feast.

I'll be fine, souls heal and being in nature recharges.

ciao

jason

So it is Mother's day again my friends.   This year it holds some more meaning to me due to all that has happened this past year. A wonderful woman with wonderful children and also our little lost one but never lost in memory.
Anyways,it's Mother's day now or soon will be or was already depending on when and where in the world you are when you read this.  But what is the REAL significance of it?? Do you know? Is it really just some holiday made up to sell some more greeting cards and fill up the restaurants or is there more to it then that?
With all of us here being wiccan/pagan I think we should be little more in tune with the meaning of Mother's day thanks to the goddess. The mother of all things in the universe that we live in and beyond. 
But before we can understand what the day has come to mean to us we need to understand who the day celebrates, Mothers. In ALL of our lives there is this extraordinary woman whom we call mother. Who is that woman? what does she mean to us?

This is a woman who nurtured you in her womb for 9 months, who talked to you and whispered her love to you before you were even brought into this world to experience all its wonders. This is the person who guided you and expanded your knowledge of the world around you, made you  strong, resilient and hungry for knowledge so that you may become the person that you are now..She was your guardian angel, supporting you beneath her outstretched  arms and caring for you when you did not want it. Being there for your success and heartaches. Always just a visit or phone-call away and ready to throw herself into whatever you may need of her. Why? Because she loves you and you are a extension of her. She is in you and will always be a part of you.  A mother doesn't just need to be the woman that gave birth to you it can be any woman that has filled that role in your life.
 Everyday is actually Mother's day.  It is something that should always be honoured and praised.   We should all be thankful to our mothers and instill in our children the love and respect for womanhood and motherhood. That there is this special person, this guardian angel and friend who should always know our undying love and respect and above all our thanks. 

So yes, I do think we need a Mothers day celebration.  Do you know why? It is in that  one day that we all can collectively honour all the mothers and the women who also fill that role in our lives with the honour, the gratitude and above all the respect they most certainly deserve in life. I love my mother and honour her and I thank her for having me on this day. I love and honour Nat for being the amazing mother that she is.  Joseph would have been truly blessed.
Grandmothers are twice blessed on this day with the love and adoration of their children and their children's children.  .....
. So to all you mothers out there and all of you who are in the role of being a mother figure to some one. Goddess bless you all. Happy Mother's day

love and light, jason