This Father's Day is rather bittersweet for me for missing my father and my son..

My father was the world to me and I thank and honor him everyday of my life. I loved him and respected him. He was a very proud and family oriented man who would do anything in the world for his family and those he loved. I have strived to live up to that image to varying degrees of success with my life. I love you Dad.

Joseph ..I never got to be with you in person but you are in my heart, soul and blood as you are in your mother's. i love you and always will...The thoughts, possibilities and hope that was you lives on in both of us...Your spirit lives on and that comforts us..

I wrote this and have redited it a bit but I thought i would share it..

ciao, jas

To have snuggled close
In restful sleep
To feel your heart
Beside us beat
Beneath our touch
A soft sweet sigh
The love for our baby
That will never die.

I would have given my soul
To have watched you grow
But fate intervened
As you know

But now you are gone..
but still you are here
In our lives always
as we sense you everywhere

This bond we can not sever
The child we had, but never met
But still will have forever

So we give to you
This love we have
Forever in our hearts
As we travel life's path

Giving 100% , doing the Math..

I talked about this before and as i am getting back more and more to me I felt like revisiting it again ..
So for this little exercise today you will all need some pen and paper, those of you not good with numbers grab a calculator as well ;-)
We are going to do this in order to figure out how is the best way to give 100% in what you do in your life and with being true to yourself. you need your pen/pencil, paper and calculator to do the math for this all.
ready everyone?
Let's do this; each letter of the alphabet will represent a corresponding number so for example so then :
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
it would be represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Ready? So lets try some words now:

Hardwork...now that is always good. When we are hard at work we are trying to achieve our goals in life. Hardwork should mean we are giving 100% so here we go

H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K would be 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

nope. that is not 100%

Alright then we know hardwork is good and we should be doing it but not the right choice yet.
let's try Knowledge.. we should need Knowledge in order to give 100% in life. we need to be able to think clearly and know what we want. Let's try that. Here we go again

K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E would be 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

ok...Spirit...We need to maintain our spirit in all things in life . THAT must be it.
S+P+I+R+I+T would be 19+16+9+18+9+20 = 91%

another close one that is important but not the golden one yet. Something else must be at the top of the list.


I have one for you...How about attitude? Let's try that
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E would be 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%



There you have it. There are many things that come into play in giving 100% in life. But if you do not have the right attitude you will not succeed. So whatever you do in life. Be sure you have the right attitude. The rest will fall into place as needed. you need to think clearly, know your intentions and go into life knowing you can be all that you want.
Ciao my friends

Jas

So I read something and it got me thinking again...LOL. It was about being overwhelmed and laying down our burdens to the goddess. It fits into my thinking/feeling of late my friends. Getting stuck so much in the events and thoughts of life and not into the FEELING and MEANING of life. The weight of your past, the weight of your life, the weight of your responsibilities and even your hopes and dreams pull you down so far that you feel crushed. Unable to breathe, suffocating inside you just want to give up but you can't.
We all have had our moments...where all in life feels dark, where we wonder if the cycle will ever end. We have a few brief respites from our burdens and that usually is enough to keep us going but still all in our life is framed in the drama and the emotion and the cycle. I have been there a number of times. I am not perfect. There is NO ONE PERSON in the world who can handle everything on their own. We need to get past that idea in our head. We by our very nature our creatures and souls of community and synergy.
Stepping out of this, turning your burdens and responsibilities over to the divine, to the world and to share our thoughts/feeling with our loved ones and our circle of souls in our lives lightens us. Brings us back in sync with the whole that is us.
it is a PART of being whole again. We all have our moments, our days in the sun and our dark times. The thing to always remember is we are NEVER alone. There are people in our lives that truly love us. Love takes many forms my friends ...she is goddess with many manifestations in our lives. She is in a sense a perception of the mother goddess.
I wrote about recharging the emotional/spiritual/physical batteries. This is also a part of that process to get whole. Nature is a great recharger ...stepping out to it. clearing your head...you can do that just by focusing on your environment start subtracting out the stray elements around you and just look, feel, hear the beauty around you Concentrate on this and this alone Let the rest of the world fall aside and take your burdens, your chains of life and let them drop. The Mother goddess is there, She will look after them. Do this and recharge the batteries as i said before. Doing both will start to get you back to you again.. It is not going to change the world... You need to do that ...but you need to be whole on the inside to be able to that. Let things fall into place when they are ready to. Actually SEE the goodness and love you already have in life. The people you love and who love you , places and day to day experiences and interactions of the world, nature and your circle of souls.
There is no missing parts in our life, we are all whole, sometimes the pieces are jumbled and need to be put back into place. Getting back in tune with ourselves and with the universe then life and all will fall into place an in to sync. We have everything we want in our lives already. It is just a matter of spring cleaning our hearts, minds and souls to complete the picture. Focusing on what is wrong just channels the negative energy back into us. it is REACTIVE and we are all basically PROACTIVE beings. Heal ourselves, trust in the goddess and goodness in the world and leave the garbage behind. Take the time to be you, the spirit is in you...looking ahead for the better tomorrow makes us miss the here and now. Enjoy what you have and work on making it better both for you, your soul, the circle of souls in your life and the world as a whole. Know that all the peace and happiness in your life is there around you it is just a matter of channelling the energy into being the you you truly are.

These are all good words and good advise. One I really need to follow as well It is not a easy path and I stumble on it a lot. But still I try and go on.

Ciao, jas

Yeah I know I have been writing a lot lately. Making up for lost time I guess? LOL Actually with my head clearing, the dust settling and just trying to heal I'm getting back to me. A hurt and slightly empty me but me none the less.

I was thinking on something my nephew said to me. While the context he said it in has changed unfortunately, the idea behind it is truly sound. He told me that everything you want in life and strive for and hope for is one step out of your comfort zone.
I was pondering that last night as I sat outside watching the woods grow dark with the coming of night.
As a side note...the way the light changes as dusk approaches the woodlands where all takes on a pink or peachish glow. THERE is where you see and realize the majesty and beauty of Gaia and all she has to offer. Don't get lost in the mundane, always look to the beauty and magesty of nature and you will keep your grounding.

We all are striving to learn , to reach our potential and to explore our beliefs and chase after the happy ever after. All that we want and all that we hope for makes us take that step and trust it is just a little off our comfort zone. Sometimes we hesitate or sometimes we step ahead and then jump back a number of times but sooner or later we fall to the inevitable and hopefully take that plunge or wallow in spiritual and emotional stagnation. This is a ongoing process we repeat throughout our lives.

We strive to learn , to grow together, to seek new avenues and process that, it's scary, nothinh ever fits together perfectly and that is a challenge for us.to make it work...Yes, it may be out of what we would normally accept at times but as we run it over in our head and heart we come to question, That is where the true gift of growth comes in. You see when we question we challenge our beliefs we explore possibilities in our hearts and minds. we question our friends, we question other people we create a dialogue. through dialogue and conversation what is born is a idea.
out of that idea grows inspiration and out of that grows life. All this because we strayed from the predictable and followed our hearts that one step out of our comfort zone.
Open minds lead to open hearts lead to healing leads to growth lead right back to you.

So enjoy your day,

Love and Light

Jas