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    Saturday, June 14, 2008, 11:08 PM EST [Thoughts]

    So I have been writing a lot lately. going on about my self discovery and path I am on etc. Saying how wonderful all will be and is in my life and that I am getting back to being whole and together.

    My life is not all sunshine and roses. there is a great deal of emotional and spirtual pain in it. My world is going every which way and sometimes I can't recall which is up and which is down. I get moody, I snap at the people i care about, I push away people i love and I can be controlling, even thought of ending all the struggles so to speak. Thats just a few of the many things I need to reconcile with myself.

    I 've written about my ideals and where I'd like to be and what I am trying to do. I made it sound that I am all there but I'm not ...I have a few moments but they are few and far between. I need to work on putting more of my thinking into action for myself. I need to get me whole again on the inside. i haven't been to any great extent. i am a lot more complexed and confused and emotional at times then i let on.

    I need to work more on practicing what i preach and get more in tune with me. Why? For many reasons, but the main one is to be true to myself. I need to be able to look the person in the mirror in the eye and know who I am looking at.

    Someday I will be okay ...Right now I am not but i hope for a better tomorrow.

    Ciao, Jas

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    Things happen, we all go through rough spots. Difficulties are challenges...lessons. If you do not learn them, you repeat them.

    Meditation; some calm time, clearing out your chakras, taking a walk in the woods, or the park some other place where you can be around nature...never a bad idea. It is best to find a way to calm your mind before you make decisions or take action.

    Astrology is my weakest point, but I have been hearing a lot about a grand cross that is passing through and then goes retrograde...and if you don't get issues in your life resolved, that when it goes into retrograde they will come back and you will have to deal with them again...so maybe its a good idea to take care of them now if you can....if I have all that right.

    Bright Blessings.

    Kyros

    Kyros
    June 15, 2008
    08:11 AM EST

    I was where you are now a year ago, basically it's fake it til you make it. Because for every step forward you take one day you'll find yourself back at the beginning the next. But it will get better.

    gods, I sound like I am spouting every cliche there is...where's Heather when you need her?

    TalaMuir
    June 17, 2008
    01:07 AM EST

    Well, Tala has a point, and she is right. However, you keep writing and soon you begin to believe in them yourself.

    Eventually you start seeing that person inside and he's a great guy, grounded in his beliefs and he can make it no matter what or where he goes.

    And really, it's not just about knowing that man in the mirror, it's about loving that man in the mirror...and trust me, it's a hard and long road filled with horrible truths and also wonderful discoveries at the same time.

    I have been there, and that is why I share that with you now...just take it slow, one day at a time, and find beauty even in negative spaces...eventually you will make it.

    Oh, and rely on those who love you....

    Blessings and love!!

    Raven
    June 17, 2008
    05:38 PM EST

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