Had a good time in the city.  Food show was fun and HUGE.   Went out to Junior's for dinner and saw soem ofa improv show later.  Afterwards wandered about Times Square and people watched as i wandered.  Had a good time but home again now.

ciao, jas

Well I will be heading off to NYC in the morning for a food show at the Javit's center.  I'll be looking for stuff for my cafe and just ideas and maybe find a new cafe idea to chase after.  i am kinda in a limbo state with the ice cream cafe I have now and may want to chase after opening another like my first one.  the combo bistro cafe, art gallery and a community place.

Being back in New york will be fun ...wandering the streets after the show during the day and just people watching.  Perhaps i can get my head cleared a little.

Anyways ..Be back monday night...ciao everyone!

Jason

So I have been writing a lot lately. going on about my self discovery and path I am on etc. Saying how wonderful all will be and is in my life and that I am getting back to being whole and together.

My life is not all sunshine and roses. there is a great deal of emotional and spirtual pain in it. My world is going every which way and sometimes I can't recall which is up and which is down. I get moody, I snap at the people i care about, I push away people i love and I can be controlling, even thought of ending all the struggles so to speak. Thats just a few of the many things I need to reconcile with myself.

I 've written about my ideals and where I'd like to be and what I am trying to do. I made it sound that I am all there but I'm not ...I have a few moments but they are few and far between. I need to work on putting more of my thinking into action for myself. I need to get me whole again on the inside. i haven't been to any great extent. i am a lot more complexed and confused and emotional at times then i let on.

I need to work more on practicing what i preach and get more in tune with me. Why? For many reasons, but the main one is to be true to myself. I need to be able to look the person in the mirror in the eye and know who I am looking at.

Someday I will be okay ...Right now I am not but i hope for a better tomorrow.

Ciao, Jas

This Father's Day is rather bittersweet for me for missing my father and my son..

My father was the world to me and I thank and honor him everyday of my life. I loved him and respected him. He was a very proud and family oriented man who would do anything in the world for his family and those he loved. I have strived to live up to that image to varying degrees of success with my life. I love you Dad.

Joseph ..I never got to be with you in person but you are in my heart, soul and blood as you are in your mother's. i love you and always will...The thoughts, possibilities and hope that was you lives on in both of us...Your spirit lives on and that comforts us..

I wrote this and have redited it a bit but I thought i would share it..

ciao, jas

To have snuggled close
In restful sleep
To feel your heart
Beside us beat
Beneath our touch
A soft sweet sigh
The love for our baby
That will never die.

I would have given my soul
To have watched you grow
But fate intervened
As you know

But now you are gone..
but still you are here
In our lives always
as we sense you everywhere

This bond we can not sever
The child we had, but never met
But still will have forever

So we give to you
This love we have
Forever in our hearts
As we travel life's path

Giving 100% , doing the Math..

I talked about this before and as i am getting back more and more to me I felt like revisiting it again ..
So for this little exercise today you will all need some pen and paper, those of you not good with numbers grab a calculator as well ;-)
We are going to do this in order to figure out how is the best way to give 100% in what you do in your life and with being true to yourself. you need your pen/pencil, paper and calculator to do the math for this all.
ready everyone?
Let's do this; each letter of the alphabet will represent a corresponding number so for example so then :
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
it would be represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Ready? So lets try some words now:

Hardwork...now that is always good. When we are hard at work we are trying to achieve our goals in life. Hardwork should mean we are giving 100% so here we go

H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K would be 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

nope. that is not 100%

Alright then we know hardwork is good and we should be doing it but not the right choice yet.
let's try Knowledge.. we should need Knowledge in order to give 100% in life. we need to be able to think clearly and know what we want. Let's try that. Here we go again

K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E would be 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

ok...Spirit...We need to maintain our spirit in all things in life . THAT must be it.
S+P+I+R+I+T would be 19+16+9+18+9+20 = 91%

another close one that is important but not the golden one yet. Something else must be at the top of the list.


I have one for you...How about attitude? Let's try that
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E would be 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%



There you have it. There are many things that come into play in giving 100% in life. But if you do not have the right attitude you will not succeed. So whatever you do in life. Be sure you have the right attitude. The rest will fall into place as needed. you need to think clearly, know your intentions and go into life knowing you can be all that you want.
Ciao my friends

Jas